Learning My New Normal
Millions of women are working moms. For some reason I always thought this fact would make me be totally cool with going back to work full time. Or handling the fact that somebody other than myself will be caring for my whole universe.
Yesterday I officially went back to work after almost three months of maternity leave. The anxiety leading up to leaving Max for a full work day was horrible. I was a wreck. I welled up in tears every time I thought about it. I can’t think about Max rolling over or taking his first step at daycare and me missing it. It sounds a bit dramatic if you don’t have kids I guess. I would have thought I was ridiculous too, until I became a mom. I busted out the tissues this week.
I did everything I could think of to troubleshoot Max’s day to make it easy on my father-in-law (he will watch the little guy one day a week, and the baby will go to a home daycare for the other four days). I wrote down his eating, sleeping, and diaper habits and routines along with emergency numbers. I also posted his feeding schedule.
The morning was rough for me. Max was so snuggly it was so difficult to leave him.
Luckily I work in a very fast paced environment. As an art teacher, my day changes every forty-five minutes or so. The day went by very quickly. I only called to check on him 3 times
. I don’t know if his photo on my desk is making it harder for me or better. In time I’m sure it will get easier. Like my co-workers and friends have been telling me, almost everybody does this.
Are you a working mother? Is there anything that I can do to make this transition easier to swallow?
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